We're all brought into this world without warning, without consent, without awareness. We grow up not knowing right from wrong but learning as we go along. This is a the part most people miss. They don't learn.
I'm someone who likes to keep notes, notes of where I'm at, a journal of my experience. And recently I've been looking through some entries. "People don't like me but I don't like many people," is something you might have heard me say. And I'm so glad, so proud of myself to have moved past that.
I was fed up with feeling horrible all the time. I was tired of being angry. Tired of the way the "cold, cold world worked." Although, it's true that some people make some bad choices, their choices are theirs and in the past I would let things that like that effect me. I was a bitter, heartless young man. Like the Grinch, my heart was "born" a few sizes too small.
That was me then, not me now. I've learned that what I get in life, my experiences, my choices, my consequences, and ultimately, my life, is up to me.
It came somewhere in past year or two, a shift, a change, in the right direction. A total and utter shift in perspective. It's difficult, sometimes. Life's difficult, after all none of us make it out alive. But to live with passion, with ignorance on fire, to live as if nothing can stop you, to live with that kind of joy, is something I strive for. I started out crawling toward that idea, frankly because I didn't have the energy or drive to do anything else. Then, I got to my feet and began walking. Now, I'm running full force, like a bat out of hell, like a human rocket, toward my wildest and craziest dreams.
Why?
What else is there? My life, like yours, is individual, unique. I am not going to be someone who blown from this to that with no say in the matter. I am someone who sees what I want and goes after it.
I'm someone who likes to keep notes, notes of where I'm at, a journal of my experience. And recently I've been looking through some entries. "People don't like me but I don't like many people," is something you might have heard me say. And I'm so glad, so proud of myself to have moved past that.
I was fed up with feeling horrible all the time. I was tired of being angry. Tired of the way the "cold, cold world worked." Although, it's true that some people make some bad choices, their choices are theirs and in the past I would let things that like that effect me. I was a bitter, heartless young man. Like the Grinch, my heart was "born" a few sizes too small.
That was me then, not me now. I've learned that what I get in life, my experiences, my choices, my consequences, and ultimately, my life, is up to me.
It came somewhere in past year or two, a shift, a change, in the right direction. A total and utter shift in perspective. It's difficult, sometimes. Life's difficult, after all none of us make it out alive. But to live with passion, with ignorance on fire, to live as if nothing can stop you, to live with that kind of joy, is something I strive for. I started out crawling toward that idea, frankly because I didn't have the energy or drive to do anything else. Then, I got to my feet and began walking. Now, I'm running full force, like a bat out of hell, like a human rocket, toward my wildest and craziest dreams.
Why?
What else is there? My life, like yours, is individual, unique. I am not going to be someone who blown from this to that with no say in the matter. I am someone who sees what I want and goes after it.
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